So I am at the point in this journey where and when I have the need to stop and think about where it is I am going. It would be cliche of me, or anyone, to say that I am at a crossroads; I'm not. I am just tired or walking around, aimlessly, in circles. Like most men, I have yet to stop and ask for directions when I am clearly lost.
I looked back on some of my posts housed in this blog and all I read is me, me, me and blah, blah, blah. It's the same crap spewed out over and over again. Whoop-di-do-dah! I've got HIV! Whoop-di do-dah! I'm struggling with A through Z. It's not to say that there haven't been some moments that are precious to me, but there's a lot of it, upon looking back, that gives me a headache.
Where am I going?
I never wanted to make this a place where I would just bitch all the time about my life and everything that's wrong with it. No one wants to read it. I don't want to read it. This blog is really supposed to be inspiring, uplifting and, at the least, enjoyable to read.
I am sitting here on my bed with Porter who keeps giving me those eyes that say, "Hurry up and go to bed." So I got to go soon.
Anyway, I look around my room and all I can see is a collection of BLAH. That is what this blog has turned into for me. I hope readers have gotten something out of this, but it's time to shift the aura, the attitude and the light of this place. It's beginning to get muggy, musky and dark.
My sincere hope is to bring the readers to a place where they can feel inspired. A place where one can read a post and smile; maybe share it with their friends and have it brighten their day. If this is already the case for you then, great, be prepared for it to get even better. For those who see what I see, the light is coming. Come to the light, Carol-Ann!
Thanks for sticking with me peeps!
You have been caught Jey Walking!
PS. Your prayers are always welcome :D
4 comments:
For what it's worth, your blog is one of the few I read every post, and as soon as I see a new one!
Sometimes you might not feel very inspired or inspiring... It doesn't mean you aren't.
Sometimes if feels like we're wandering aimlessly, but in the big picture we are actually going someplace very important. It's just hard to see progress here on the ground...
I hear ya! Sometimes I feel like my life is going in circles too. Definitely ready to move on to something different. Still learnin' how I guess.
Your blog title made me immediately think of this song, which is an every-other-day earworm for me. There's so much in my life that I feel like is almost in my reach... but I have to know what I want first, and what is that? I have no idea?!
*trumpet fanfare*
Turn up the lights in here baby
Extra bright, I want y'all to see this
Turn up the lights in here, baby
You know what I need
Want you to see everything
Want you to see all of the lights
Yes! Turn up the lights! Let me see what I need to see!
...Love you, Jeybaby. We'll make it. Muah.
My prayers are with you.
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